No way to handle things

I am troubled. It's keeping me up and keeping me unhappy. Perhaps I've just let myself get behind already and so I'm stressed, but I actually think I'm kind of juggling a lot of contributors at the moment:

Graduate school auditions approaching way too quickly. I don't know which pieces I'm doing yet.

ACTF approaching way too quickly. I just figured out which scenes, but I'm not super excited about them. Hopefully I will be after we start working them, which should be any day if I would just memorize them.

I'm taking a lot of performance-based credits this semester and I need to find a lot of material, which just isn't happening. Why don't I know more plays?

I need a song transposed and no one can do it. Including myself. Yet I'm supposed to perform it on Thursday?

My roommate and I are having troubles but apparently I'm supposed to let her approach me though she hasn't for the past six days. I can't handle people not liking me, and I can't handle people that I care about not caring enough to talk about things. How is she supposed to know what's going on inside my head? She doesn't know me that well.

I'm not in a show. You say 'get over it' and trust me I'm trying.

My valiant efforts to make a difference at the gym are showing me nothing. I'm on a stupid diet which makes me depressed about myself and cranky about the cardboard food I eat. I don't get enough sleep since I get up at 5:30 to go to the ineffective gym, which makes me even more cranky. I just feel like quitting.

I'm trying, but I'm not exactly getting over him.

I feel alone. Which is stupid but it's how I feel.

I freak out a little every day about graduating.

So I imagine the advice you would give to me is to stop wasting time on a blog and get my butt into gear. I have plenty of work to be doing. And also to stop dwelling. And maybe also to have a little faith. I'm trying. I really am. I'm scared about so many things and trying so hard not to be. And things build up and I try to take it one step at a time but there are just so many things to pay attention to. And I'm unaccountably emotional. And I'm kind of depressed. And I don't know what to do about that.

Maybe, despite my homework, I should just go to bed.

This is stupid, please don't comment, I just had to write that all out. I'll wake up tomorrow and get back to work.